*Ahem* *Ahem*

http://www.peace-motivate-hope.blogspot.com/

xP

xoxoxo
MaV [Ma'aV]

Moving On ..

I don want ur replies anymore
I don’t want u to unblock me when u see me online anymore
I don’t want u to leave freakin email or a stupid messages
I don’t care if u figure out what ive done or what am ging to do
I don’t care if u tell the world the wrongs ive done
I don’t care if they find out am a “Closet Writer”
I don’t care anymore

I just didn’t block u from facebook and msn ..
I blocked u from my life

With this I conclude … I have officially “moved on”

ForEver,
xoxoxo
MaV [Ma’aV]

Okay i you know how i keep going on MoveOn MoveOn in my blog titile .. well i seriously NEED to move on ..

i talked to this Elder person .. a teacher actually .. Told him everything ive kept bottled up .... told him about that time when i was 10 .. that kid got run over by a car and slipped into comma and i saw who did it and never told on him and that i still feel guitly about it .. told him SOO MUCH OTHER STUFF ! God forbid ! ..
Told him about a few of my "Friends" told him about my little life .. told him about my parents ... told him about how G's gonna leave me soon .. .. told him how much i hate that 62 year old jerk who's making my dad's and everybody else's dad's miserable .. told him all the rotten things that has happened to me ..... but then you know WHAT? As soon as he was going to open his mouth to actually say something ...

It happend .. i woke up .. it was a DREAM ! O.O
iSwear that was sooo dissapointing ! i started crying casue i had never told anyone soo much stuff and then then *POOF* ..All gone ! imean in my dream i was SOOO RELAXED and then when i wake up am like THAT NEVER REALLY HAPPENED ! I WASNT TALKING TO ANYONE BUT MYSELF!

Gosh was that some sort of sign ? ...

xoxo
MaV [Ma'aV]

Plz Say Aye

Friendship sometimes turns in to love but love into Friendship ? Never.

Those who agree please say "Aye"

xoxox
MaV [Ma'aV]

*Sighs* Dad's leaving today .. iwonder why he keeps doing this .. he comes and he goes and then comes back and goes again o.O .. and then he makes me and my elder siblings do it .. we go and come back n then go and come back again ! =.= What is up with THAT ! We have some serious issues here and its not just me ! ... plus i have exams starting this tues .. am really trying to Focus but my mind keeps wandering off somewhere else ! .. =.= Ohh man i seriosuly CANNOT afford to fail Maths .. my life .. my reputation ... Ahh !

xoxo,
MaV [Ma'aV]

Thanks lunatic ! =)

http://www.anvari.org/cols/Zodiac.html

Idiot Age?

Okay the past few days have been major busy like MAJOR BUSY ! o.O .. I havent even felt like writing .. something is surely wrong with me exept for the fact that am apparently "Sad" i dont know why but i just feel like punching peoples faces when they try to interupt my thoughts or ask me how my day went over and over again o.O [Mostly those people are my family-related-doctors .. talk about lame] i think their just paranoid and sometimes i like that everybody's got a problem but really nobody wants to solve them ..

I was talking to G the other day and she was telling me how shes gonna keep a very good watch on me when am 16 because she thinks 16 is an "Idiot Age" I think she just said that cause of my freinds , Nomad and Cathy .. i dont think Cathy does anything but Nomad is the kind of 16 year old who has to be watched over sure he's VERY mature and has always helped and taken care of me since am his youngest bestest friend .. but their's soemthing about Nomad that will always be kept a secret .. and thats why he's Nomad =) .. but well he's always been that way i dont think 16 is an Idiot Age ..

*Sighs* have to get back to studying ...

Much Long,
MaV [Ma'aV]

If Ever There Is A Tomorrow When
Were Not Together .. There Is Something
You Must Always Remember
You are Braver Than You Believe,

Stronger Than You Seem & Smarter

Than You Think But The Most Important

Thing Is, Even If Were Apart,

I'll Always Be With You

-winnie the pooh

Okay so now its been a week since ive been to school .. *Sighs* ... My brother happened to take full advantage of the fact of me not going and stayed home today too .. anyways today a Doc happened to invite himself over to my room .. [PS: Doc happens to be my uncle]

Doc: So where are these two?
Mum: Probably in their room

~~~~~~~~~~~~

Sam: Is that ..? O.O ..
MaV: Oh.My.God ! Sam HIDE! He's gonna have one of those "talks" with us !!
*Doc enters room
*Me , G and Sam all stare at him*
Doc: Okay so whats this all about?
*We continue staring*
Doc: *Takes a deep breath* Marv , do u happen to get sick IN school or before going to school?
Me: Umm .. right before going to school .. in the morning .. looking at the uniform gives me the creeps..
Doc: *smiles* Ahaan .. now G .. havent u taught these two how YOUVE ADJUSTED ..?
G: .. I cant tell them anything .. I havent adjusted myself ..
*Me and Sam start laughing*
Doc: *looks a little worried* .. Okay .. Hmm well then .. i suggest Marv .. u take some medicine before going to school
Me: Medicine ..? like ummm .. Dr-Drugs? O.O
Doc: O.O .. Ofcourse NOT! .. Youre far TOO LITTLE! .. and i know thats its very hard for u all .. with ur Dad not being around and ur Mum staying busy and everything .. but u must understand .. and try to over come suct situations and takecare of each other .. Hmm .. Sam and G .. since u are are elder i appoint u to watch over Mav .. and u both are going to school on Monday .. takecare

*Doc leaves*
*We all start staring at each other*

Sam: He thinks he's so smart but really he didnt even know what to tell us !! .. what a DOOF!
G: I agree ..
MaV: Why's he bossing us around anyway ..?
G: Cause Dad's not here .. and their supposed to APPARENTLY take his place .. and yeah .. their ELDER and KNOW BETTER .. which they do .. but i think were just too depressed to see it .. or understand it .. or feel it! o.O
Sam: *Sighs*

Xoxo
MaV [Ma'aV]

*Sighs* .. Still havent returned back to school ... ..

Sitting in bed all day is kinda getting boring now !
Haha sent this really Funny+Cute E card to Nomad today ! =D

http://www.hallmark.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/ecard%7C10001%7C10051%7C630358%7C147551;-102001;181568;-102162%7Cecard%7CP1R9S%7Cecards?&totalCategories=18&sortBySelect=&categoryId=-102162

Haha!

Xoxo
MaV [Ma'aV]

What Else Am I Left With?

Okay , i didnt go to school today either ! =.= .. so i woke up at the middle of the night today at 4:30 .. okay maybe thats the middle of a new day but yeah .. hanging on the closet door i could see my school uniform .. and i FREAKED ! .. i seriously got SCARED ! .. O.O ..Talk about acting Paranoid n then well my mom got up and went all like "Are you feeling any better?" and then i sort of begged my mom not to let me go today too .. well i wasnt feeling better anyway .. =.=

Anyway yesterday while staying in bed and listening to music .. i did alot of thinking [ALOT].. i think i finally have stuff figured out a little .. [ okay maybe not a little but just a bit ] .. i have decided that am gonna study alot more to keep my mind out of everything and that am gonna download more songs for keeping my self from doing anything stupid ! =.= .. And and i have decided that am gonna spend more of my pocket money on paintbrushes and CD's rather than take it to school and then lend it to somebody who wont even return it back to me in the first place! =.= I miss my old school =[

So now that i can finally keep my self busy and not get into trouble and hopefully get good grades for it .. i guess i have nothing else to worry about !..

Cheers ,
MaV [Ma'aV]

Surprise Surprise !

WHAOO ! My Dad just Texted meh !!!!!!!
He's coming on 14 NOV !!!!!!!!!!!! =D
MAN I LOVE MY DADDY ! ♥

YAY ! No school for meh today ! =D .. ...
I gotta say staying in bed all day listening to music is kinda fun and relaxing ! =)
But yeah i'll be missing out a LOT ! and i still have my prevous work to complete ! =.=
Man! I hate school !

Xoxo
MaV [Ma'aV]

Ouch!

Wow! This drawing on Paint thing is getting kinda fun ! =D

Princess Mia

OMG! I finally finished reading the 9th Book ! =D .. I have to say .. it has totally changed my views about Mia ! .. I used to think she was a Wacko! but not anymore .. she's pretty Sane now! atleast when she brought Democracy to Genovia ! I have to say the title "Princess Mia" is PERFECT! Cause this book is ALL about MIA ! =) ..

Ohh and Lilly is evil and Micheal is still WAYYY better than J.P!

Home?

Happy Halloween

Happy Halloween !! =D .. YAY YAY YAY!

*SIGH* Unfortunatley this year we arent gonna do anything!

I mean me and Tia celebrated Halloween with one snicker mini each !! and it wasnt even dark ! that also in school when we were supposed to be studying in the library ! -__- ..

Ohh well might as well get used to it ! =P ..

xoxo

MaV

Okay i was so sure i was gonna write someyhing totally happy-go-lucky today but seriously now am not really in the mood =.=

Is this the end of everything we know? Is this the end of everything i am?

ECOD ♥

Advice Given by a dear friend xD

Possible solutions to combat ECOD ♥ ♥ :
STOP reading Twilight
DONT watch the twilight movie
DONT think about EC
STOP reading Twilight
DONT watch the twilight movie
DONT think about EC
STOP reading Twilight
DONT watch the twilight movie
DONT think about EC
STOP reading Twilight
DONT watch the twilight movie
DONT think about EC
STOP reading Twilight
DONT watch the twilight movie
DONT think about EC
STOP reading Twilight
DONT watch the twilight movie
DONT think about EC
STOP reading Twilight
DONT watch the twilight movie
DONT think about EC
STOP reading Twilight
DONT watch the twilight movie
DONT think about EC

^The above is the certified advice of Dr G.

ECOD. ♥ ♥

I think i may have Edward Cullen Obsessive Disorder. AKA ECOD. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Xoxo
MaV [Ma'aV]

ACKK ! .. Once again woke up in the morning feeling half dead half alive .. the only difference is that today is a weekend and am supossed to be happy ! o.O .. Could it be that am actually missing school? NAH ! .. I guess am just exhausted from last night ! .. My cousin's getting Married in Nov .. so all her aunts came over last night to help pack up her clothes! .. It was pretty cool ! their such party freaks ! =D ..
One of the things i miss the most about Dubai (exept for my school , friends , dad , roads , shops , malls .. okay you get the idea ! -_-) is my Mug !! No seriously the one i have over here is this tiny little piece of glass that has an Orange drawn on it ! -__- ..
I really feel i should start writing a dairy ! .. i mean i do write a blog and it does contain my personal thoughts (okay maybe not all of em) but i guess its not the same thing .. I dont know why but i refuse to give m friends my blog address .. i have given it to hardly 3-4 of em ..
Hmm .. if i do end up writing a dairy .. am gonna write on the one Mishi gave me on my birthday ! =) .. Its pretty awesome .. =) .. MISHI ROX ! =D

TeeHee .

Xoxoxo
MaV [Ma'aV]

Okay so back home when G was taking driving classes ..with the money dad spent to get G a driver's licence [spelling? o.O] .. HE COULD HAVE GOTTEN ME FREAGIN 6 HP LAPTOPS!

So the electricity’s gone again!! Seriously why does it always happen to meh! Am now typing in MS.Word .. Hm I kinda like typing on MS.Word ! no spelling mistakes ! xD .. although some times it gets annoying ! ‘-_- ..
So just came home from school like 40 minutes ago .. I guess it was okay .. now that people actually talk to meh ! .. Now that’s am improvement! .. but then I did get into trouble with Ms.J ,, she’s the head around ! [ Haha! Head! =D] and it was before school had started ! [Seriously what is wrong with meh ! ]
Ohh lookie my 3 year old cousin wants to play cards with meh ! =D haha! So cute !
Teeheee!

Xoxoxo
MaV [Ma’aV]

Im am so dead ! seriously! i flunked maths .. Dad's gonna be really dissapointed and am gonna get really busted and apart from that i still havent completed my work (maths =.=) and now that i have started breaking rules in school all my teacher have been "talking about it" ..
I dont really care about the fact teachers hate me or the fact that i havent completed my work .. i dont really care .. i mean not caring is well lifting off 5 kgs off my shoulders .... but then Mum will eventually worrying .. -_- .. SIGH.
Mum and G said they dont mind me acting like complete control freak and being TOO bossy these days cause they think am just acting like that get treated that way in schhol . .. -_-
Am suprised G agreed ... but then Hey ! she loves meh ! =)
I dont think dad's coming to meet us this month or the month after .. my uncle keep's filling idea's in my head like how he's just gonna pop outta nowhere like the way he came for the weekend last month ... but i think dad had alot on his shoulders .. i texted him the other day

MaV : Salaam .Hey ^^. How are ya? When are ya coming back?

Dad : Beta , Im Fine .. How are you? .. Bacha , INTEZAR!:) i miss you.

MaV : Okay , im fine , i miss U .. Love you , Bye

See ! he aint coming !
OMG! its 11 ! -_-' .. am tried ! Takecare ..

Wheee Wheee Wheee Its Saturday !!! =D .. o.O .. Lol .. Man i love weekends ! . and oh yea last test on Monday .. Computer .. Teehee !! . .. and not to foget i got a B in URDU!!... a B!!! B B B !! =D ..
Am kinda actually enjoying school nowadays cause of my new friend ... i mean she's pretty cool ! =) .. i mean we both read Princess Dairies ... spend our lives on the net .. we both have a hard time in maths .. and this is her seccond year in Pak (my first year ! kinda the same ! :P ) and we both listen 2 english music and we both dont watch or listen indian stuff !! YES! we have so much in common ! =D .. but frankly i think i can fit in with anybody as long as they agree babble and yack with me in english rather than in urdu ! .. So bottom line is that i dont wish for my school to get shocked by thunder anymore .. but this friend of mine , Tia will me moving back with her dad next year .. in Dhaka! can you believe my luck !!
Hmmm but my Mum said that if i hate my school so much , next year , she'll make me do Olevels privately !! Everybody wins ! =) ohh and next year , Nomad will be coming to Pak .. so cant wait !! =D haha! Nomad will be doing college! Teehee!
i dont get wot to write anymore .... nothing has happened today so far .. Hmmm ..Chalo

xoxoxo
MaV [Ma'aV]

Am not sure what am looking for and i dont want to no more ..
It just fill's tears in youre eyes ...

Hold On - Good Charlotte
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d1xJR8RTZCU

This world, this world is
you don’t, you don’t have to go
You’re feeling sad you’re feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
You’re mother’s gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bare

But we all bleed the same way as you do
We all have the same things to go through
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
Your days you say they’re way too long
And your nights you can’t sleep at all (hold on)

you’re not sure what you’re looking for
But you don’t want to no more

And you’re not sure what you’re waiting for but you don’t want to no more
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
Don’t stop looking you’re one step closer

Don’t stop searching it’s not over...hold on
What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for
Do you know what you’re doing to me
Go ahead...what are you waiting for?

Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
Don’t stop looking you’re one step closer
Don’t stop searching it’s not over...Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know...hold on

Okay so my tests have started .. Urdu went great !=D [Hey ! i studied hard for it ! not to mention eat the head out of Saju!] and yeah G changed the comp password again and i only get to sit 5 minutes a day !! [I get to sit longer today cause i got eng lang test tomorroww ! Haha ! Language!] yeah where was i .. ohh yes .. What does she expect meh to do in 5 minutes !! .. and am finally getting used to school ! for the first time in my life i dont feel like picking it up and throwing it ! [Not that i can actually pick it uo but you know what i mean !] and thats all thanks to my new friend Tia [NOTE: Tia is VERY different from the rest and VERY much alike me ! welll exept for the fact that she pronounce's emo as em - mo but i guess the english have a different way of saying it ! :P] Teehee ! .. and yeah .. Nomad lost his sarcasim! so he's nicer now .. really sweet but then again really freaky ! O.o and and ive run out of things to write ..!!

xoxo
MaV [Ma'aV!]

Random .. 0.0

1/10/08


D : how about this one ..?
M: Dad!! , Mishi got this for her bday ! i cant copy and buy what her parents bought her! plus she's one of my besties i cant buy something totally awesome that she already has! that would decrease the awesomeness !!!!!
D: [ gives me "the look" ] *SIGH* I understand now ! :P
M: *evil glares dad* *smiles*
D: Excuse me ( calls the salesman )
SM: Yes sir
D: Which one of these are better Creative .. right?
SM: Creative is a very good brand sir
M: What about this one .. iRiver?
SM: that ones AMAZING!
M: Whao ! .. :)
SM: its amazing ! how much GB do you need ? weve got 1 , 2 .4
D: 4
SM: ahh i see .. =) .. music addict aye?
M: ahaan! =)
D: oh and please tell me this one will last longer ! cause you dont know this kid! in 6-8 months .. its always gone!! =)
SM: HAHA! dont worry this will surely last longer ! =)
M: =)

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G: You know? we should have a disney marathon ! we'll watch all are favourite's tonight!
M: aint ya a little too old for em !
G: *evil glares*
M: haha! just kidding! great idea ! it'll be great fun!
G: Yea ! Hey did ya know! i used to sing that song to you in Anastasia , " Once Upon A December " to you when you were a little baby!
M: Yea?
G: You were such a whiny little brat ! :P
M: HAHA! i bet i used to get damn annoyed and would fall asleep before you even reached the chorus !
G: NA UH! You used to fall asleep cause it was supposed to make you fall asleep ! and admit it you remember ! and you loved that song!
M: hmmmm .. i still LOVE IT ! n no i dont remember! :P

[ You have no idea how much i remember !! ... ]

No Love

There's only hate There's only tears There's only pain There is no love here Oh so what will you do? There's only lies There's only fears There's only pain There is no love here.

[Okay , i seriously have to stop listening to such depressing songs]

Last Night ..

7/10/08

So went to school today .. well the break timings changed .. so i missed it but luckly when i was finding my way to their class room , from afar i saw a TALL TALL GURL! =)
[ Andie is TALL! =) ] And as she came closer am like

MaV: Andie?
Andie: [BIG SHOCK!] MAV??
MaV: Andiiee!!!! =D
*hug* =)
(Then we just started talking and then Andie told meh that break already got over and that they were having Social now and PE next ...)
20 Minutes Later
Since G was with meh , she was getting really pissed from waiting so i just went to the ground to see if they were downstairs yet .. when i saw they werent .. i headed back .. as soon as i turnined to the the door that lead . i saw a line of my (mostly) Ex-Classmates coming out .. Gigi spotted meh first and was like "O.O" "=D" and then the rest of em and then the all started screaming and waving "MAV! MAV!" and then well .. the PE teacher got Mad cause they were making too much noise !! xD HEHE ..
so then i announced my leaving ... and head back to the door [ turned back once more and saw em waving back at meh..]

And now .. well now am tring to figure out .. "Am i really depressed or is it that ive been staring at the computer screen too long?" just a few minutes ago .. Nomad called the convo went something like this ..

Nomad: *Happily* Hiiiiiiiiii!
MaV: Hey ..
Nomad: whacha doin?
MaV: On the computer
Nomad: Youre leaving tomorrow ..
MaV: yes , i know ..
Nomad: then i shall come and meet you!
MaV: when ?
Nomad: Now!
Mav: oh ok .. Sam'sa not home [meh, Nomad AND Sam ALWAYS hangout together]
Nomad: So wat? Where is he?
MaV: Out .. hey ... cant you come later am kinda too depressed right now ..
Nomad: Why?
[Can you believe HIM!! Years of being my BEST FRIEND and he goes like "WHY?"]
MaV: Am leaving tomorrow .. ive left before .. remember? i know how it feels .. now its all gonna happen again..
Nomad: okay *sympathectic*

God,am so depressed ! AND NOBODY'S ONLINE! I SHOULD SERIOUSLY GET A BFF THATS ONLINE 24/7 !!
sESSH AND HWY DOES THE PHONE KEEP RINGING!! FIRST IT WAS NOMAD , THEN DAD , SAM AND ITS ... Mishi??

So the convo went something like this

Mishi: Buhut Gandi ho tum ! mein tumareh itne samne khari howi thi or tum ne mujhe dekha bhi nahi!
MaV: MISHI! Am sorrryy!! i didnt see you! everybody was standing next to meh! what could i do !!
(we start chattering)
Mishi: Aur?
MaV: am leaving tomorrow ..
Mishi: Mav? (sad.. VERY SAD) your leaving-ngg tomo-rrow?
MaV: yes ..
Mishi: dont go!! Mav!!!! Mama!! please dont !!
MaV: why are you crying? =)
Mishi: Mein tumahari dost hoon! mein roungi nahi toh kia tumhar bus aisse tumhara rotta howa shukal dekhun [ AHEM! excuse meh for my spellings! am not so good at this!]
MaV: =) ..i dont want to go back .. you kno .. i get bullied in school! am like some sort of push-over .. anyone who comes just pushes meh!
Mishi: wow .. i'll mail u a bandage ..
MaV: Yaar am not kidding .everybody's like i shud try pushing THEM around!
Mishi: whats the prob in that?
MaV: am like the youngest and one of the smallest .. their kinda .. umm .. heavy!
Mishi: haha! bechari! btw what were you doing?
MaV: i was just writing a post
Mishi: oh .. what tym's youre flight tomorrow?
MaV: its in the morning..
Mishi: what tym?
MaV: i dunno ..
Mishi: Jao ja kar jaldi se mama se poch kar aoy!
MaV: 8 o Clock
Mishi: I'll be in school .. =(=(

And Gosh now Nomad's gonna comeover and everybody's gonna start texting and calling and ... well .. what can i say?

The MOST Beautiful Thing Anyone Has Ever Given To Meh .. So Far ;)

You And Rosseita ^^

You Wilted .. ='(

Home Home Home ! =) Am finally going home tomorrow ! =D Gosh , Everything hurts rite now but who cares am going HOME ! =D
Okay , here's a list of stuff i have to do :

Things to do before leaving:

• Buy Gum!
• Pack ALL my Music CD's ! [ Gotta show my collection ! ]
• Hunt for cash [ i dont have any ! -_-' ]
• Pack all my school books [ Grrrrr 0_0 ]
• Find my Du Sim [ Okay , I admit it .. I lost it ! o.o ]
• Decide what to give Andie for a late Birthday present
• Ask dad if he know's where my sim is
• Charge Cell
• Buy book "Where Rainbows Ends" [ in the airport ]
• Apologize to guardian for saying the beautiful words i said to her yesterday , I hate you [im turnin into such a meanie! ]
• Demand Eidi from family ALL ELDER members! =p
• PRAY ! =]

Something's Not Right .... o.O

And What It Takes , I Dont Care .. Were Gonna Make It , I Swear .. And We Could Help Each Other Off The Ground So We Never Fall Down Again .. !

So finally the days are coming close ! Am finally going back home ! ( n then coming back here after 8 days! ! :@ O.O ) grrr! I cant wait to be alone ! I mean only since im not used to living with a joint family ... dont have much against them .. I know their just concerned and they wanna help but do they really have to be behind my back ALL the time !
*Sigh* anyways a gonna be missing one exam and unfortunatally it wont be Maths or urdu or pak studies or english ! O.O I am so DOOMED!
And ohhhhh tomorrow's Andie birthday ! =D and am not gonna be there! 0__0 God , am such a dork! hehe .. i hope time flies soon and so i can go back home faster and go torture the life out of all my friends there , not to mention annoy the living hell outta my dad ! =) hehe

Cant Wait ! =)

xoxoxo
MaV

Its All Deep Inside

I HATE MY LIFE I HATE MY LIFE I HATE MY LIFE I HATE MY LIFE I HATE MY LIFE

Ok , i know there are ppl dying out there and i should seriously be fortunate for what i have but right now all i want to think about is ME!
I hate what i am I hate what i've become and i cant believe ive turned Punk from Goth!
I cant believe i have piled up homework which i dont get
I cant believe i have 4 uncles who are trying to take the place of my dad
I cant believe my art project's a mess
I cant beieve there's tears all over my art project no wait! there's tears all over everthing near me encluding my self!
I cant believe i have all this anger and secrets buried deep inside
I cant believe this house i live in everyday now is not my home
I cant believe i get judged everyday ( i Know only God can judge meh)
I cant believe am writing this post instead of doing something useful
I cant believe i burst into tears while in the phone with my dad
AND I CERTAINLY CANNOT BELIEVE WHY ALL THIS HAS TO CRASH UP ON ONLY MEH!

I Cant Wait To Be Alone!!

Old Memo's

Adah



The morning of the 26th of June 2008


HangOut of MaV , Sam M.A and Nomad


HangOut since 4 years !











Moi And Andie's Shoes


In School

Morning of the 21/05/08 , Most probably 8:07 am

[Left : Andie] [Right : MaV]

Class of i think Maths ! or Zero period ! I dont remember !



[Note : No, my foot is not abnormally small ! Andie's just elder and taller than meh ! :P Leave it to meh to be the dork to wear the right PE shoes ! :P xD ]













Sloppy !

Andie's beaded boyfriend! :P

Owner Nabeela . M

Purpose to make Maths class more fun !

Date 21/05/08

Hardy Brothers

Matt Hardy's the new ECW Champion !! =D He beat out Finlay , The Miz , Chavo and Mark Henry !! =D He really deserves it ! he fought like a true wrestler ! we're proud of you mate ! =) same goes for Jeff Hardy , he was the WWE CURRENT Champion in the scramble match buhh one second changed it all ! No matter! he was really good!! =D

Am I The Fool .. Am I A Victim ?

Madness o.O

M: HELLLOOOOOOOOO!
M: HOWSSS YOUUUUUU?
G : You dont have to scream!
G: Hey
G: Youre english is going haywire
M: Yessh auntttieee!
M: Buhhh i arent in school so it doesnt matter!
M: And it aint that bad ! :P
G: Yea well am in uni! :P
G: hows was school ?
G: everything okay?
M: Our principla is our pak stds teacher ! ='(
G: lol
G: hahahahahaha
G: hahahahahaha
G: :p
M: It aint funny !!
M: btw watcha doin online?
M: jobless female!
G: hmmm am waiting for a ride home
M: AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
M: AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
M: YOURE COMINGGG!!
G: yes
G: yes
G: I AM coming!
M: hehe

Ok , i know i am totally jobless to post this but i just felt like it !

Cheers,
MaV

Something's Wrong With Meh ..

Subjects i will be failing this year :

• Urdu! ( AHH )
• Pakistan Studies ! ( Well we still dont have a teacher n i havent even learnt the sub b4!)

God ! And next year i will have to decide between Commerce and Science ! ( they both sound equally evil and i dont even like Commerce OR Science! )

I used to LOVE english class since i mostly used to get all A's in my assignments and i had no problem in reading those huge novels since one of my bestest friends used to read the whole thing and make me understand everything in the end ( well he used to offer ! and beside's he's senior to meh ! and he is much of a book worm ! ) but ever since ive come here , my eng teacher keeps writing this remark " Avoid Language error and maintain single tense"

I wonder why she keeps writing that on every single page instead of actually calling me in and SHOWING me where am wrong !

And maths isnt going so hot either ! I dont knw why but my maths teacher just scares me ! i mean litterally ! i cant even talk to her right ! I guess i wouldnt have been so scared of her if she hadnt been so strick from the first day , finishing 2 exercise's in chap 1 and showing off her sarcasim and showing no interst in helping meh catch up with the work even when she knew i hadnt learnt ANY of this stuff before where as my classmates were all happy! And considering the fact that i had to cope with 2 chapters at the same time to catch up that too i had to do with the help of my loving Guardian , cousin sis and tution teacher ! =)

But honestly something is definately wrong with meh ! 0__0

MaV

The Autumn Leaves Are Falling .. Like Tears From Her Eyes..

I See It Again

He's crying there,
His mom's all mad,
She strikes one , she strikes hard
He screams again,
He can barely breathe,
I stand there still,
Thinking of the pain

Why did she hit so hard again?

-MaV

To What?

Hold On? ........... To What?! O.o

So ive started reading my Guardian's collection of Meg Cabot books , well i only started reading them in the first place cause well their really good and well atleast i have something to read in my free classes or when my bored *sigh of relief*

My parents hve finally decided to fix the date of when were alll going back to Dubay (just for a week) buhh i think thats more than enough ive been here for a long 104 days ! ( WHAO! ) Cant wait to be home again ..
home .. hmmm something that i have missed so much..
But my saty here hasnt all been bad well most of it has but well atleast but if i would have come here i would have never have met JC .. :D;D and what about celebrating the 14 th of Aug here .. that was pretty cool hopefully my parents will let me get a pet since their's more open space here ... =)

And Nomad FINALLY replied back !! :D actully it was meh who did all the writing all he said was like "how's everything , what r you up to , did you make anynew friends?" Gosh , why did he have to ask such depressing questions!

URRGHHH! i got sciense tomorrow which means i got a load of homework! O.O "SIGH"

Gotta Go ..

xoxoxo
MaV

Reasons ..

Reasons why I don’t want to live here:

• I cant speak up to ppl here ! [ All I do is shut my mouth and smile!] Whats worng WITH MEH!
• I don’t get as much as Privacy as I want!
• People here don’t seem to understand my need for music.
• I am considered as a lost cause in my school
• Its hard for me to trust people over here .
• The grass is greener on the other side . Ok ,maybe that’s cause am too lazy to mow my own lawn! O.o
• NOT GETTING ANY PEACEFUL SLEEP HERE ! [ I selpt a restless sleep of 13 hours today … NO HELP!]
  PS: I need sleep to stay calm
• One of my teacher’s claim that common sense is not very “common” to meh . [$%@$!]
• I lose too much credit !!! [ its not my fault that my only friends are soo faraway! ]
• I miss my ADAH!
• My Urdu has somewhat gotten even worse here. O.O
  

Reasons why living here is umm .. Okay :

• I have learnt to appreciate books even more.
• I have learnt that books CAN be your friends.
• I have become a better student [ O.O ]
• I back-answered to one of my classmates [ attracting stares! ] and didn’t feel guilty [ She deserved it! :@:@:@ ]
• I learnt that fighting for ur rights and standing up for what you believe in is very important in order to survive in this world
• Living here had motivated meh even more to working harder.
• I have decided what I wanna be when I grow up.
• I am finally forgetting .. [ unwanted stuff ]
  
  **MaV

"How are you?"
"Why is your dad living so far away?"
"Where is your mom?"
"Who is your guardian?"
"Who do you live with?"
"Why did you move here?"
"Are you okay?"
"Are you crying?"
"Why are you do quiet?"
"WHY? WHY? WHY?"

Apperantly these are the questions people are constantly asking me over here . Its getting kinda annoying answering the same qeustions over and over and over again ! 0__0 I think am getting paranoid . No , wait i am kinda paranoid!

Today's friday and tomorrows Saturday .. =) the weekend is here .. i just love getting up late.
Wonder what new adventure Monday will bring again .. whatever it is am not looking forward to facing it ..

Until next tym , takecare

MaV

9/11 ... Never Again .. God Bless ..

It Could Get Worse

I don’t know what’s wrong with meh today .. I woke up in the morning really low and don’t know what happened to meh in class .. I don’t know why but I started to miss my dad/friends REALLY REALLY much and all my thoughts were surrounded by my sad-depressing feelings, I couldn’t control my self .. But I had to .. I couldn’t let them see me cry .. I soon got tired of everything and simpliy just put my head . When I came home I found out that my Guardian was extremely sick and she couldn’t come home early cause the family driver was no where at sight .. This got me mad.

Guess I’ve been having a really bad day .. Its thinking hard to convince my self that I should be thankful for what I have and that someone else is going through something even worse..

*SIGH* Gotta go to tution today .. I guess the least I can do is go and study well I get good grades on the stupid test and get em all proud … hmm yea I think that’s what am gonna do .. =) . Anyways Take care … Hasta La Vista .. Adieus ..

Forever,
MaV

Mav: BUHHH WHY??
Guardian: He said you two have to work harder ! You know , if you guys try , you can do anything you want to ! i'll talk to youre teacher ..
Sam: But we'll DIEE !
Guradian: You wont die .. *rolls eyes*
Sam: What if we fail ?
Guardian: We'll see , just let dad come and things will get settled ..
Mav: Buhh .. buhh .. i dunt want to fail *sad eyes* xD
Guardian: hmmm .. i thought you were a genious ? =p
Mav: *evil glares guardian* =p =p
Guradian: =)
Sam: But how could he not let us get exempted from urdu ! if we fail . i'll blame him!
Mav: I'll blame him too ! =D
Guardian: And i'll BLAME HIM TOO along WITH YOU TWO !
Sam / Mav : *Gulp*

3rd tym in the pricipal's office xD

7/09/08

Principal : You mean to say that you two want to be exempted from urdu?
My Bro : *nods head*
MaV: ehhhh yea
Principal : i see from youre mother's application letter that you two are new to this country ..
My Bro : thats not really our ..
*silence*
Principal : excuse me?
MaV: this letter is written by our guardian ..
Principal : ohh really?
MaV: yes *glares with innocent eyes*
Principal : well i expect you two to ask youre guardian to give me a call and arrange a meeting .. i hope that will be possible by tomorrow?
My Bro : We were hoping u'd say day after tomorrow?
*princy looks up at me*
MaV : *gives an awkward smile*
Pricipal: very well
MaV: where can we get your number?
Principal : Just ask the receptionist


**************************************

My Bro : Hello
Reciptionist: Hello there , how are you two doing ?
My Bro : Very well thankyou..
Mav : Can we please get the principal's contact number?
Reciptionist : hold on a minute there
* hands me a card*
MaV: Will we be able to reach him by this no ?
Reciptionist: *nods head* .. Did you get the Fee-Note , *shows a copy*
MaV: yup ! my uncle has already given it ..
Reciptionist : *smiles*

************************************

Im finally getting the hang of going to the school's office . Ive also become very familiar with my new school ! =) finally getting used to people ! *sigh of relief* i still feel dead once in a while buhh that's no excuse to keep quiet. Nways tomorrow's the dai my "guardian" goes for the meeting ! =D =D .. finally going to get urdu exempted ,, =) now all i have to worry about is maths .. o.O

Nowaday all i do is solve sums .. in school , after school , in tution , after tution , before school starts and before going to bed ! SHEESH! Gimme a break! *SIGH* guess thats life ..

Until Next tym , takecare

MaV

A Letter To God .

Dear God,
Hows You? How are my people up there ?
I hope youre taking really good care of them.
I guess you know everthing going on in my life , so it would be useless to
start form the begining. God , isnt life hard enough that you had to go ahead
and put me in such situations with such people?
Ofcourse i dont blame you , maybe its just me, i mean after all its mostly
meh who does the mistakes and than hands them over to you
to fix them for me =) .. I thankyou for that , i really do. But God , why is everything
so hard? I try hard , i really do.

God , I really want to make them proud , please reply soon.
Hmmm .. I guess i better get back to my Math homework .. you knw its really
alot and i could use some help if you would just ............ =D =D .
Thanks for listening.

Ever And Forever Yours,
MaV

Translation Of Velvet UnderWorld ( Opening song to Weiss Kruez )

The world's flowers are like a carpet of crimson red
As one petal scatters and is tossed through the air
Sorrow and sadness are born there
From the darkness that streams in the world below
Aa, Were humans hearts meant only to lie?
Are people just the puppets of fate?

Just to... embrace those we loveAnd protect those precious and small
Again today, someone laments again
Sacrificing even their life
To smolder in the midst of time
With that instant's kiss
In this city stained with greed
The only thing heading Heavenward is wind
All that is left of trampled love
Is the tear left in the palm of my hand
Aa, were smiles only meant to sunder?

Every one has their own wounded hearts
I want to... protect those timid creatures
Those who kneel in prayer
I'll even carve a cross in my chest
To believe in something unstoppable
And the irrepressible spirt

Now and forever
The clouds disperse, the stars are seen
The wind stills , the birds sing
The ocean shines , the heavens thaw
The night ends ,I feel you

A friend asked me this question while chattin with me on the net ...

NOTE : Sorry for messin up your name! =D=D

Kiki : Do you miss Dubay?
MaV : No , i dont miss it at all ..
Kiki : Really ?
MaV : Yes
MaV : I just miss the people , my friends
Mav : Chocolates !

This question struck my mind for a whille ....
Just thought of sharing it .. =)

Ohh and if you are damn bored and jobless just check this out ! =D Really funny!
http://www.cartoonnetwork.com/games/fosters/wheeeee/index.html
NOTE: Only for jobless ppl !!

Cheers,
MaV

Sundays ... =) i love sundays .. well ever since i had moved here .. back there in dubay sundays was the starter of the workin days ... but i guess it never really used to bother me so much .. i kinda looked forward to going to school .. well i'll admit it , i spent most of the final term sitting in class textin my besties =) well lets just say sometyms i had better things to do .. anywho chanin tracks ..

Apart from me being lonley and mostly depressed here , i think i have also become very independent here , i think i have become an even better student ,

Well lets face the facts , i dont have many ppl to fool around with here , its mostly me. Come to think of it , i dont really mind being lonley .. buhh remembering all the ppl over "there" and the stupid things we used to do , just kinda depresse's me a bit . I feel i should have been more thankful over there .. well i guess i should be thankful over here as well .

Atleast i have ppl watching over me. Apart from all this i seriously need to start taking studies more seriously!! Something tellls me my parents have higher expectations from me this year. Guess its cause of all the reading i have been doin . *SIGH*

Hope all's well at evrybody's end . Takecare

xoxoxo,
MaV

Heylo ! Hows ya? Hope youre having a fab day!

Well those of you who know me , also know that have maintained like 2 blogs but at the end deleted every single one cause of the lack of attention i get . Buhh now since i have moved "AWAY" for good , i thought this would be a good place for u people to check out whats happenin at my end , thouhg i know somehave you have also tried to maintain a blog but then got fed up of it and forgot about it ! .. Andie .. Nomad ... =D=D .. So the comments dont bother me anymore .. =) So lemme start,

As 4 you guys youre school's probably started a few days ago or is gonna start tomorrow! Be sure to tell me each and every detail !
And as you all kno that it has been like almost a month for me in my new school ( and country , 3-4 months ).
Not lyin about the fact that i seriously hate it and facin the fact that i am gonna take extra long to settle down.

Frankly speaking i dont know whats wrong with me! I have never taken so long to sdjust somewhere , Is it because of lack of sleep ? No time ? Healthy food? Is it cause of too much homework ? is it cause of priciple who keeps asking me then and again to work "HARDER"?

Well am not sure what the problem is so am just gonna let it stick to my head for a while ! Althouh i think it will stick even longer than i have planned and Ahh yes ( by the request of .. ahem ahem :D :D )..

New Addiction : Minekey
Current Favourite Band : Simple Plan
Current Mood : Emotional
Current Favourite hobby : Writing
Current feelin : Half dead half alive

Well i am sure i have done my part , Until next tym , takecare

Cheers,
MaV