Home Home Home ! =) Am finally going home tomorrow ! =D Gosh , Everything hurts rite now but who cares am going HOME ! =D
Okay , here's a list of stuff i have to do :

Things to do before leaving:

• Buy Gum!
• Pack ALL my Music CD's ! [ Gotta show my collection ! ]
• Hunt for cash [ i dont have any ! -_-' ]
• Pack all my school books [ Grrrrr 0_0 ]
• Find my Du Sim [ Okay , I admit it .. I lost it ! o.o ]
• Decide what to give Andie for a late Birthday present
• Ask dad if he know's where my sim is
• Charge Cell
• Buy book "Where Rainbows Ends" [ in the airport ]
• Apologize to guardian for saying the beautiful words i said to her yesterday , I hate you [im turnin into such a meanie! ]
• Demand Eidi from family ALL ELDER members! =p
• PRAY ! =]

Something's Not Right .... o.O

And What It Takes , I Dont Care .. Were Gonna Make It , I Swear .. And We Could Help Each Other Off The Ground So We Never Fall Down Again .. !

So finally the days are coming close ! Am finally going back home ! ( n then coming back here after 8 days! ! :@ O.O ) grrr! I cant wait to be alone ! I mean only since im not used to living with a joint family ... dont have much against them .. I know their just concerned and they wanna help but do they really have to be behind my back ALL the time !
*Sigh* anyways a gonna be missing one exam and unfortunatally it wont be Maths or urdu or pak studies or english ! O.O I am so DOOMED!
And ohhhhh tomorrow's Andie birthday ! =D and am not gonna be there! 0__0 God , am such a dork! hehe .. i hope time flies soon and so i can go back home faster and go torture the life out of all my friends there , not to mention annoy the living hell outta my dad ! =) hehe

Cant Wait ! =)

xoxoxo
MaV

Its All Deep Inside

I HATE MY LIFE I HATE MY LIFE I HATE MY LIFE I HATE MY LIFE I HATE MY LIFE

Ok , i know there are ppl dying out there and i should seriously be fortunate for what i have but right now all i want to think about is ME!
I hate what i am I hate what i've become and i cant believe ive turned Punk from Goth!
I cant believe i have piled up homework which i dont get
I cant believe i have 4 uncles who are trying to take the place of my dad
I cant believe my art project's a mess
I cant beieve there's tears all over my art project no wait! there's tears all over everthing near me encluding my self!
I cant believe i have all this anger and secrets buried deep inside
I cant believe this house i live in everyday now is not my home
I cant believe i get judged everyday ( i Know only God can judge meh)
I cant believe am writing this post instead of doing something useful
I cant believe i burst into tears while in the phone with my dad
AND I CERTAINLY CANNOT BELIEVE WHY ALL THIS HAS TO CRASH UP ON ONLY MEH!

I Cant Wait To Be Alone!!

Old Memo's

Adah



The morning of the 26th of June 2008


HangOut of MaV , Sam M.A and Nomad


HangOut since 4 years !











Moi And Andie's Shoes


In School

Morning of the 21/05/08 , Most probably 8:07 am

[Left : Andie] [Right : MaV]

Class of i think Maths ! or Zero period ! I dont remember !



[Note : No, my foot is not abnormally small ! Andie's just elder and taller than meh ! :P Leave it to meh to be the dork to wear the right PE shoes ! :P xD ]













Sloppy !

Andie's beaded boyfriend! :P

Owner Nabeela . M

Purpose to make Maths class more fun !

Date 21/05/08

Hardy Brothers

Matt Hardy's the new ECW Champion !! =D He beat out Finlay , The Miz , Chavo and Mark Henry !! =D He really deserves it ! he fought like a true wrestler ! we're proud of you mate ! =) same goes for Jeff Hardy , he was the WWE CURRENT Champion in the scramble match buhh one second changed it all ! No matter! he was really good!! =D

Am I The Fool .. Am I A Victim ?

Madness o.O

M: HELLLOOOOOOOOO!
M: HOWSSS YOUUUUUU?
G : You dont have to scream!
G: Hey
G: Youre english is going haywire
M: Yessh auntttieee!
M: Buhhh i arent in school so it doesnt matter!
M: And it aint that bad ! :P
G: Yea well am in uni! :P
G: hows was school ?
G: everything okay?
M: Our principla is our pak stds teacher ! ='(
G: lol
G: hahahahahaha
G: hahahahahaha
G: :p
M: It aint funny !!
M: btw watcha doin online?
M: jobless female!
G: hmmm am waiting for a ride home
M: AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
M: AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
M: YOURE COMINGGG!!
G: yes
G: yes
G: I AM coming!
M: hehe

Ok , i know i am totally jobless to post this but i just felt like it !

Cheers,
MaV

Something's Wrong With Meh ..

Subjects i will be failing this year :

• Urdu! ( AHH )
• Pakistan Studies ! ( Well we still dont have a teacher n i havent even learnt the sub b4!)

God ! And next year i will have to decide between Commerce and Science ! ( they both sound equally evil and i dont even like Commerce OR Science! )

I used to LOVE english class since i mostly used to get all A's in my assignments and i had no problem in reading those huge novels since one of my bestest friends used to read the whole thing and make me understand everything in the end ( well he used to offer ! and beside's he's senior to meh ! and he is much of a book worm ! ) but ever since ive come here , my eng teacher keeps writing this remark " Avoid Language error and maintain single tense"

I wonder why she keeps writing that on every single page instead of actually calling me in and SHOWING me where am wrong !

And maths isnt going so hot either ! I dont knw why but my maths teacher just scares me ! i mean litterally ! i cant even talk to her right ! I guess i wouldnt have been so scared of her if she hadnt been so strick from the first day , finishing 2 exercise's in chap 1 and showing off her sarcasim and showing no interst in helping meh catch up with the work even when she knew i hadnt learnt ANY of this stuff before where as my classmates were all happy! And considering the fact that i had to cope with 2 chapters at the same time to catch up that too i had to do with the help of my loving Guardian , cousin sis and tution teacher ! =)

But honestly something is definately wrong with meh ! 0__0

MaV

The Autumn Leaves Are Falling .. Like Tears From Her Eyes..

I See It Again

He's crying there,
His mom's all mad,
She strikes one , she strikes hard
He screams again,
He can barely breathe,
I stand there still,
Thinking of the pain

Why did she hit so hard again?

-MaV

To What?

Hold On? ........... To What?! O.o

So ive started reading my Guardian's collection of Meg Cabot books , well i only started reading them in the first place cause well their really good and well atleast i have something to read in my free classes or when my bored *sigh of relief*

My parents hve finally decided to fix the date of when were alll going back to Dubay (just for a week) buhh i think thats more than enough ive been here for a long 104 days ! ( WHAO! ) Cant wait to be home again ..
home .. hmmm something that i have missed so much..
But my saty here hasnt all been bad well most of it has but well atleast but if i would have come here i would have never have met JC .. :D;D and what about celebrating the 14 th of Aug here .. that was pretty cool hopefully my parents will let me get a pet since their's more open space here ... =)

And Nomad FINALLY replied back !! :D actully it was meh who did all the writing all he said was like "how's everything , what r you up to , did you make anynew friends?" Gosh , why did he have to ask such depressing questions!

URRGHHH! i got sciense tomorrow which means i got a load of homework! O.O "SIGH"

Gotta Go ..

xoxoxo
MaV

Reasons ..

Reasons why I don’t want to live here:

• I cant speak up to ppl here ! [ All I do is shut my mouth and smile!] Whats worng WITH MEH!
• I don’t get as much as Privacy as I want!
• People here don’t seem to understand my need for music.
• I am considered as a lost cause in my school
• Its hard for me to trust people over here .
• The grass is greener on the other side . Ok ,maybe that’s cause am too lazy to mow my own lawn! O.o
• NOT GETTING ANY PEACEFUL SLEEP HERE ! [ I selpt a restless sleep of 13 hours today … NO HELP!]
  PS: I need sleep to stay calm
• One of my teacher’s claim that common sense is not very “common” to meh . [$%@$!]
• I lose too much credit !!! [ its not my fault that my only friends are soo faraway! ]
• I miss my ADAH!
• My Urdu has somewhat gotten even worse here. O.O
  

Reasons why living here is umm .. Okay :

• I have learnt to appreciate books even more.
• I have learnt that books CAN be your friends.
• I have become a better student [ O.O ]
• I back-answered to one of my classmates [ attracting stares! ] and didn’t feel guilty [ She deserved it! :@:@:@ ]
• I learnt that fighting for ur rights and standing up for what you believe in is very important in order to survive in this world
• Living here had motivated meh even more to working harder.
• I have decided what I wanna be when I grow up.
• I am finally forgetting .. [ unwanted stuff ]
  
  **MaV

"How are you?"
"Why is your dad living so far away?"
"Where is your mom?"
"Who is your guardian?"
"Who do you live with?"
"Why did you move here?"
"Are you okay?"
"Are you crying?"
"Why are you do quiet?"
"WHY? WHY? WHY?"

Apperantly these are the questions people are constantly asking me over here . Its getting kinda annoying answering the same qeustions over and over and over again ! 0__0 I think am getting paranoid . No , wait i am kinda paranoid!

Today's friday and tomorrows Saturday .. =) the weekend is here .. i just love getting up late.
Wonder what new adventure Monday will bring again .. whatever it is am not looking forward to facing it ..

Until next tym , takecare

MaV

9/11 ... Never Again .. God Bless ..

It Could Get Worse

I don’t know what’s wrong with meh today .. I woke up in the morning really low and don’t know what happened to meh in class .. I don’t know why but I started to miss my dad/friends REALLY REALLY much and all my thoughts were surrounded by my sad-depressing feelings, I couldn’t control my self .. But I had to .. I couldn’t let them see me cry .. I soon got tired of everything and simpliy just put my head . When I came home I found out that my Guardian was extremely sick and she couldn’t come home early cause the family driver was no where at sight .. This got me mad.

Guess I’ve been having a really bad day .. Its thinking hard to convince my self that I should be thankful for what I have and that someone else is going through something even worse..

*SIGH* Gotta go to tution today .. I guess the least I can do is go and study well I get good grades on the stupid test and get em all proud … hmm yea I think that’s what am gonna do .. =) . Anyways Take care … Hasta La Vista .. Adieus ..

Forever,
MaV

Mav: BUHHH WHY??
Guardian: He said you two have to work harder ! You know , if you guys try , you can do anything you want to ! i'll talk to youre teacher ..
Sam: But we'll DIEE !
Guradian: You wont die .. *rolls eyes*
Sam: What if we fail ?
Guardian: We'll see , just let dad come and things will get settled ..
Mav: Buhh .. buhh .. i dunt want to fail *sad eyes* xD
Guardian: hmmm .. i thought you were a genious ? =p
Mav: *evil glares guardian* =p =p
Guradian: =)
Sam: But how could he not let us get exempted from urdu ! if we fail . i'll blame him!
Mav: I'll blame him too ! =D
Guardian: And i'll BLAME HIM TOO along WITH YOU TWO !
Sam / Mav : *Gulp*

3rd tym in the pricipal's office xD

7/09/08

Principal : You mean to say that you two want to be exempted from urdu?
My Bro : *nods head*
MaV: ehhhh yea
Principal : i see from youre mother's application letter that you two are new to this country ..
My Bro : thats not really our ..
*silence*
Principal : excuse me?
MaV: this letter is written by our guardian ..
Principal : ohh really?
MaV: yes *glares with innocent eyes*
Principal : well i expect you two to ask youre guardian to give me a call and arrange a meeting .. i hope that will be possible by tomorrow?
My Bro : We were hoping u'd say day after tomorrow?
*princy looks up at me*
MaV : *gives an awkward smile*
Pricipal: very well
MaV: where can we get your number?
Principal : Just ask the receptionist


**************************************

My Bro : Hello
Reciptionist: Hello there , how are you two doing ?
My Bro : Very well thankyou..
Mav : Can we please get the principal's contact number?
Reciptionist : hold on a minute there
* hands me a card*
MaV: Will we be able to reach him by this no ?
Reciptionist: *nods head* .. Did you get the Fee-Note , *shows a copy*
MaV: yup ! my uncle has already given it ..
Reciptionist : *smiles*

************************************

Im finally getting the hang of going to the school's office . Ive also become very familiar with my new school ! =) finally getting used to people ! *sigh of relief* i still feel dead once in a while buhh that's no excuse to keep quiet. Nways tomorrow's the dai my "guardian" goes for the meeting ! =D =D .. finally going to get urdu exempted ,, =) now all i have to worry about is maths .. o.O

Nowaday all i do is solve sums .. in school , after school , in tution , after tution , before school starts and before going to bed ! SHEESH! Gimme a break! *SIGH* guess thats life ..

Until Next tym , takecare

MaV

A Letter To God .

Dear God,
Hows You? How are my people up there ?
I hope youre taking really good care of them.
I guess you know everthing going on in my life , so it would be useless to
start form the begining. God , isnt life hard enough that you had to go ahead
and put me in such situations with such people?
Ofcourse i dont blame you , maybe its just me, i mean after all its mostly
meh who does the mistakes and than hands them over to you
to fix them for me =) .. I thankyou for that , i really do. But God , why is everything
so hard? I try hard , i really do.

God , I really want to make them proud , please reply soon.
Hmmm .. I guess i better get back to my Math homework .. you knw its really
alot and i could use some help if you would just ............ =D =D .
Thanks for listening.

Ever And Forever Yours,
MaV

Translation Of Velvet UnderWorld ( Opening song to Weiss Kruez )

The world's flowers are like a carpet of crimson red
As one petal scatters and is tossed through the air
Sorrow and sadness are born there
From the darkness that streams in the world below
Aa, Were humans hearts meant only to lie?
Are people just the puppets of fate?

Just to... embrace those we loveAnd protect those precious and small
Again today, someone laments again
Sacrificing even their life
To smolder in the midst of time
With that instant's kiss
In this city stained with greed
The only thing heading Heavenward is wind
All that is left of trampled love
Is the tear left in the palm of my hand
Aa, were smiles only meant to sunder?

Every one has their own wounded hearts
I want to... protect those timid creatures
Those who kneel in prayer
I'll even carve a cross in my chest
To believe in something unstoppable
And the irrepressible spirt

Now and forever
The clouds disperse, the stars are seen
The wind stills , the birds sing
The ocean shines , the heavens thaw
The night ends ,I feel you

A friend asked me this question while chattin with me on the net ...

NOTE : Sorry for messin up your name! =D=D

Kiki : Do you miss Dubay?
MaV : No , i dont miss it at all ..
Kiki : Really ?
MaV : Yes
MaV : I just miss the people , my friends
Mav : Chocolates !

This question struck my mind for a whille ....
Just thought of sharing it .. =)

Ohh and if you are damn bored and jobless just check this out ! =D Really funny!
http://www.cartoonnetwork.com/games/fosters/wheeeee/index.html
NOTE: Only for jobless ppl !!

Cheers,
MaV

Sundays ... =) i love sundays .. well ever since i had moved here .. back there in dubay sundays was the starter of the workin days ... but i guess it never really used to bother me so much .. i kinda looked forward to going to school .. well i'll admit it , i spent most of the final term sitting in class textin my besties =) well lets just say sometyms i had better things to do .. anywho chanin tracks ..

Apart from me being lonley and mostly depressed here , i think i have also become very independent here , i think i have become an even better student ,

Well lets face the facts , i dont have many ppl to fool around with here , its mostly me. Come to think of it , i dont really mind being lonley .. buhh remembering all the ppl over "there" and the stupid things we used to do , just kinda depresse's me a bit . I feel i should have been more thankful over there .. well i guess i should be thankful over here as well .

Atleast i have ppl watching over me. Apart from all this i seriously need to start taking studies more seriously!! Something tellls me my parents have higher expectations from me this year. Guess its cause of all the reading i have been doin . *SIGH*

Hope all's well at evrybody's end . Takecare

xoxoxo,
MaV

Heylo ! Hows ya? Hope youre having a fab day!

Well those of you who know me , also know that have maintained like 2 blogs but at the end deleted every single one cause of the lack of attention i get . Buhh now since i have moved "AWAY" for good , i thought this would be a good place for u people to check out whats happenin at my end , thouhg i know somehave you have also tried to maintain a blog but then got fed up of it and forgot about it ! .. Andie .. Nomad ... =D=D .. So the comments dont bother me anymore .. =) So lemme start,

As 4 you guys youre school's probably started a few days ago or is gonna start tomorrow! Be sure to tell me each and every detail !
And as you all kno that it has been like almost a month for me in my new school ( and country , 3-4 months ).
Not lyin about the fact that i seriously hate it and facin the fact that i am gonna take extra long to settle down.

Frankly speaking i dont know whats wrong with me! I have never taken so long to sdjust somewhere , Is it because of lack of sleep ? No time ? Healthy food? Is it cause of too much homework ? is it cause of priciple who keeps asking me then and again to work "HARDER"?

Well am not sure what the problem is so am just gonna let it stick to my head for a while ! Althouh i think it will stick even longer than i have planned and Ahh yes ( by the request of .. ahem ahem :D :D )..

New Addiction : Minekey
Current Favourite Band : Simple Plan
Current Mood : Emotional
Current Favourite hobby : Writing
Current feelin : Half dead half alive

Well i am sure i have done my part , Until next tym , takecare

Cheers,
MaV